Things just get more surreal…

Hello Sweet Amazing Community:

Things with this trip to NYC are just getting more and more surreal. Today I got a call from the Blood Center in NYC, who has been arranging all of this.

They asked if I would be willing to do an over the phone interview with someone from the New York Post. They will interview Christine, my donor and me. A human interest story for the Thanksgiving Holiday.

Its not 100% but she was pretty sure. Wow Human interest story, you’re not kidding!!!! I’ll say!!!

I continue to be blown away by this whole trip to NY.

At the same time, my lungs are currently giving me a bit of a hard time. Which is frustrating and is creating a lot of anxiety for me. Do I rest? Do I walk? Do I take a pill and knock myself for the day? Yikes.

I know I’ve been complaining a lot lately in my posts but, I guess I’m just in that space.

It’s hard when Noah is away and his re-entering back home is always weird, he's been in geek land for days and long hours, and I have been in solitude. So it’s always tough and it honestly takes a couple days to get reconnected. So we tend to bicker a bit and its just yuckie.

But jeez, what can you do, ya know? Here we are being human, doing our stuff, trying to be good, trying to take care of what we each need to take care of...and ugh.

I feel my anxiety rise, and then I breathe and pull myself to this very moment. But that mind is taping on my head and teasing me and saying don’t get stressed its not good for you....oh your getting anxious. Blah, blah, blah.

I wish I could explain it better, but it’s a royal pain in the butt.

Oddly enough I am sleeping really well at night and deeply too. So this is good. And my counts are good and we are still on track with getting me off the pred (thank goodness). My liver and kidneys are so good and doing their job, my blood pressure is starting to go down as the pred is lowered.

I get to go to NYC with my husband and see a friend I haven’t seen in nearly 10 years, and have some yummie time with Noah away from our routines and distractions, we are going to Carnegie Hall for Pete’s Sake…I’m meeting Christine at last!!!

I’m alive
I’m loved
I have so much abundance in so many forms

What do I have to complain about??

Why do we do this to ourselves as humans?

I heard it said by many masters, teachers and gurus (not in these exact words). Do the Trees complain, do the rocks bitch and moan, do the birds get anxious...

This gift of being a human being is truly rare, but it is a practice to be a good one, isn’t it, it takes work to be awake and aware. To be loving and kind as much as possible if not all the time.

Over and Over again from all masters of every spiritual practice and religion I hear what is boils down to is LOVE.

Gosh, Love, this I know. But all the stuff that is put in our path to challenge us and try to lead us away from all that, to test us and frustrate us, to show us what we are made of, to see if we really mean it...... Whew that’s a load.

I don’t know why having Cancer has made me more aware of this but it has, I knew these things before. Maybe it is when you don’t know which it is going to go, if this is going to be your last moment, you start to wake up.
but staying awake.....ah there is where the real work is.

So I guess I’m in the real work part of my Complete and Unlimited Health and Healing.

The diagnosis, the chemo, the Temple on the Hill, the transplant...all that was the ceremony. Now is the time to apply everything I learned during the ceremony.

Gratitude, Love and forgiveness those are the big ones.

I don’t know its crazy ya know. All of this. Sometimes I literally gasp out loud when I think about what I have been thru. And sometimes I am moved to tears that I am here to share this all with you, and even more grateful that you want to hear about it all.

And that you all pray for me and my husband and my family.

Wow, life is just so amazing. And I feel better already just sitting down here and sharing this you all.

May you all have an Abundant Thanksgiving and be surrounded by those that you love.

It IS all about the LOVE!!!

Love, Blessing, purrrs and peace.
Sweet Dreams.

Namaste
Victoria