Medicated but awake...

Tonight is a strange night.....

I’ve taken all my sleepy time meds, listened to 2 guided imagery CDs that usually knock me out in minutes, but here I am 12:20 and wide awake.

My mind is in full wondering land...imagining this, visualizing that, wondering about those things. what will it be like when....how can I create this..... Not bad things at all. Just lots of wonderings and looking toward my future unknown life ahead.

I had an emotional breakdown of sorts earlier this evening that might have triggered an out pouring of thoughts locked tight away in my mind and heart.

Who knows?

Wouldn't you know it. The alarm is set for 6:30 Am to get ready for clinic and stop by a friends house first to feed her kittie. Isn’t that always the way, like the night before you are going on a big exciting trip.

Ummm this whole thing, my life right now, is a big exciting trip.

Sometimes daydreams and self examination comes in the darkest hours of the night. I’m not struggling either, just floating from one thought to the next, noticing my breath...."wow my breath is feeling easy”, crazy what a good cry releases. Noticing the ideas that come to mind, just imagining what is beyond this healing phase.

I thought the screen from the computer always makes my eyes tired and I can share these thoughts at this odd hour, and take another adivan, and try it all again.

So here I am awake, but OK. Feeling safe and sound and cleared out in some way.
Excited about sleeping and dreaming and excited about having another opportunity for a new day, already ready to choose life and joy and I haven’t even fallen asleep yet.

Anyway, I know most of you are in dreamland, so Ill end this transmission and join you all in the Dreamtime.

Thanks for listening.

Let’s all have a really happy day and maybe, just maybe choose to do one thing differently. I think that is what I am going to try.

Nighty-Night!!!
All my love.

Namaste
Victoria