Tick Toc...

Hello All

Time is such a funny thing. I can hardly remember how long I have been out of the hospital and how much longer I am on house arrest. I think I haven’t even been out for a month and I guess that means another month or 2 for house arrest.

There’s lots of coughing and sneezing people out there shopping like mad....so I feel safe and cozy here.

It is certainly a practice to find contentment with doing nothing AND not being able to do what I might want to do. So I am finding the lessons in this phase of my healing.

As I feel stronger I want to do more. I have been doing more laps around my neighborhood and am moving around my house more and finding more energy to cook and take care of myself. I even do a little yoga.

My parents are an overflowing Spring of love, help and support. And Noah jumps in when he is not working. I am learning how to let go of my need to control but it can be challenging at times. I’m figuring out how to find privacy in a house full of 4 adults and 2 kitties.

I got permission to go to David and Mark's house (my brother and his partner) for Christmas Day. So this is good and it will be nice to be in their home. This weekend Noah and I drove to Half Moon Bay, about 30 minutes south of here and sat in the car and watched a storm crash around us. WOW!!

From the inside out my body is growing and taking form. The donors cells are still finding their way around and setting up shop making a home in my body, integrating with the other parts of myself. It is a miracle and it is happening inside of me. What a strange and wonderful thing to have a part of someone else in me fighting to save my life.

My prayers have been deep and strong and my spiritual practice has really been called to action. I’m learning to love myself with out hair and the sense that my body is not the same anymore. I’m learning where my beauty really comes from. I’m learning more and more the importance of family and love and dedication and respect and patience and always Faith.

I hope that your holiday preparations how ever you celebrate are filled with Love and ease and Peace, After all it is all about the LOVE

Sweet Dreams

Namaste
Victoria