Bye-Bye Hair...

Hello Sweet Community

We are fogged in over here in The Temple on the Hill. I feel like I am surrounded by a big fluffy cloud. So it feels really cozy here.

Well I am nearly at the bottom of my counts...What does this mean. I am open to infection, I feel a little more tired and that the chemo did its job. But in order for them to come up they must come down.
Last night my hair started to fall out so this morning my mother and I shaved my head completely. I have to say I have gotten used to shorter hair or no hair. And it is no big deal it will grow back.

The past couple of days have been full of excitement. First I had a platelet transfusion, donated by my Dad, and for some reason I had a reaction. Lots off hives and such. So they gave me a ton of Benedryl....so the rest of the day was sleepy time. Sweet Dad felt so bad that he couldn’t help me in that way...for Goodness sake just him being here with my mom is such a gift.

But in true Harvey fashion he is down there in the clinic giving platelets to those other patients who are in need. I love him so much.

Then yesterday, my throat was really bothering me, I can barely swallow. So they were trying to figure out what pain med worked.

I was pretty queasy and loopie, and at the mere mention of giving me more...I threw up. I was OK. It was kinda funny actually. I mean one moment I was fine and the next BLAH!!!!! Needless to say they didn’t give me that med anymore. We found a combo that worked so everything is alright there. I am mostly accepting the pain meds so I don’t have discomfort when I swallow


I hope that wasn’t too graphic. We talk about all kinds of things at the hospital......so I’ve gotten use to that

Lets see what else....

My target discharge date is Nov14. This all depend on the White Counts coming up. no fevers, no mouth sores I’m able to eat and walk.

I feel very good about all these things. I am not even feeling anxious to go home. I am here in this moment. Meeting my fellow patients on the floor when we are all walking. Chatting up the nurses and the women and men that clean the rooms or bring the food. I really love that part of being here. I guess that is Being in the Moment.

Anyway I hope you all are savoring the moment you are in and allowing that moment to teach you. Even when we feel awful, or someone pushed your buttons, or you got a special card saying you are loved, or you are enjoying your favorite meal. These are all special moments, they show us we are alive and we are human and what a gift those things are...

Today I am filled with a lot of joy and as I click my send button I fill that moment with Joy so you feel it as you open and read this email.

Happy Friday!!!!!

Big Prayers
Big Love
Big Purrrrrs


Namaste
Victoria