Repeat 10X Prednisone is my Friend...

Hi there all…

Man, will the fog ever go away in San Fran. It’s so strange living here sometimes. What month is it? Is it Spring, Fall, Winter??? Where are my shorts and the warmth of the sun? Sunshine where are you...Oddly enough it is only about 20 minutes away just over either of the 2 bridges here. But here we are all in the Womb.

Then one day the sky opens up and the womb releases everyone and we forget that it was ever foggy. And everyone is out in the parks and playing and feeling reborn. That’s how it works here, that’s the joy of San Francisco and the mystery



Well I’m still on The P (Prednisone) for another 2 to 3 weeks. My eyes are better but the doc wants them to be 100% better. ****pout*****

So I’m like, well then put me on something for these moods because I am driving myself and everyone around me, crazy. So they have me on Xanax. I’ve never been on Medication like that before.

So I take the Xanax then a little while later the "P", then a little while after that another Xanax. This is supposed to balance me out. It’s only been 2 days so we shall see. I feel a little sedated at times but that’s better then feeling like a pinball.

I am definitely feeling like a little Chemical Factory.

This is about healing this GVHD though.

So I say, Thank you GVHD, you did a good job on my body, you were overall good to me and so gentle. So lets bid each other farewell. Give me my tears back, I want my mouth not to get little blisters inside when I eat, I want the rash to go away. No more sedatives...

So lets work together.

I complain a lot! Geeez.

So maybe, if I’m really nice and just keep doing my best to be calm and breathe soon this will be behind me.

GVHD likes is much better when I am calm and breathing. Then it slowly goes away. It is the teacher right now and I, its humble student

I decided not to go to my friend’s party next weekend, for the health and well being of body and emotions and stress. Too much work for a person hopped up on a lot of stuff.

Ill rest and learn the joy of naps (I just woke up from one). I’ll re-embrace my routine of meds and drops. And surrender to The Pause ( I phrase I read the wonder Author Alice Walker use)

And Ill remind myself that 3 even 4 weeks is nothing compared to my whole future continued healthier and healthier life ahead of me.

So Community, please if it is Spring where you are and you are starting to feel those warm spring breezes, and mild evenings. ENJOY!!!!

We are here about to have a fire, light a million candles in the house and watch a comedy.

Prayers, Purrrrs, and the Warmth that Love can only bring even on a cold Foggy San Francisco night.

Namaste
Victoria