Working with fear and Talking with The AML...

Good Morning Community

I hope the majority of you are off, and doing something peaceful or just being. I know there are many people that are working but maybe you are working in a more peaceful way to Honor the very peaceful Martin Luther King Jr.

I feel even stronger today then I did yesterday and it is becoming enjoyable to eat, and I am hungry and have been eating often. So we'll see 10 lbs by the 28th of Jan.

I was thinking and reminded by a friend about fear and how it effects people, cause some people tend to retreat and some don’t. She thought maybe some were really hanging onto the percentages I mentioned. And was scared and don’t know what to do.

Firstly, I heard that number loud and clear and it lingers once in a while but most of the time to me it is an average, I am Victoria, I am surrounded 24/7 by love and prayers and light and ceremonies and Masses and dedicated yoga classes, My spirit remains strong and my body is getting strong. I live filled with full faith in this, in my doctors, in the power of positive thoughts, in allowing the dark ones attention and letting them go, I have full faith in weeping to release, to get angry when I need to. All supportive for clearing the way for healing.

Am I scared of course I am. Its friggin scary, Are some of you scared, of course you may be, and there is no shame in it what so ever.

I believe that we all come to that place of peace when we are ready, when we have worked it out, because of course what is happening to me touches on that place we don’t usually talk about over a cup of coffee, our mortality.

We don’t know when or how it will come. We get Cancer, but die of something else. We are healthy and get hit by a car. We grow old and die of old age. We never know. And we don’t like to talk about the one thing we can never escape from.

So hell yes it is the top of the list of scary things.

I am aware of it all, It in my face and around me at the clinic, that possibility. How is she doing how is he doing, who’s in the hospital, who’s in Remission still. It’s a whole different world held together by many different energies by the people there and at various of stages of hope and despair.

I sit and observe and find my place on my teeter-totter, and straddle, smile and engage, send love all around the room. Breathe deep and know where my work is, what I put in the hands of Creator and Divine Mother. Pray, surrender, all of it.

Yesterday, now don’t laugh. But I had a talk with the AML. I said you know, you have taught me a lot. I am grateful, but I am just letting you know that you are no longer welcome in my body I am not going to host you anymore. I am going to begin to create an environment that will make it very difficult for you to live and grow. But I also asked for Gods help with this and requested that you be allowed to transform yourself from whom you are now to the stars or the trees or the fish in the ocean or the beautiful strong rocks on the highest mountain top.

I’m sure you can do this.

But I just can not accept you into my body anymore.
I would like for you to leave peacefully, and leave my body and spirit intact, and leave my health and vital energy. I have a lot of intentions and Service to give to the world. I want to become and elder and share every thing I learned. So you will be spoken of.

But its time for you to go

I may talk to you more about this but please consider this your first warning. I don’t lie, I am very loving and the most loving thing I can do for you is let you go, and have the opportunity to become something made of light. Something healing and welcoming. Something to heal our planet.

Thank you for listening AML.
I have faith you will see what I am talking about and depart quickly and sweetly and quietly, leaving me whole and healthy.

Strange eh, but I figured. Everything is living, everything has life, including Cancer and maybe you just have to tell Cancer directly what you want, I can be loving and stern and clear.

Anyway, it felt good to do that. So now it knows I know its there and I am not surrendering to it, and I’m ready to usher it out of my body with a whole Collective of people, armed with tools and tools and tools of Love and prayers and Blessing and good Medicine and plant Medicine.

Please enjoy your day. Love those around you. Appreciate the moment you are in. Breathe in fresh air. Notice something in nature, just right outside your window, and think for a moment what a miracle that thing is from a blade of grass to a massive Red Wood tree, to tiny birds eating food, for the way the clouds move across the sky, or how the snow covers the ground....so simple these things but so complex and amazing.

And we are just as simple and just as amazing and just as complex we are no different then any of these things. We are one with it all.

Love Love and nothing but Love to all of you.

Namaste
Victoria