Finally I can send an update...

Hello everyone

It’s Tuesday Am and I have tried the past few days to send out a quick email but each time I hit send the UCSF system times me out and I loose the mail.

So I’m trying in word first and then copy and paste and see if I can send.

Well as you know this has been a BIG stay, 3 procedures and Big unexpected news has really thrown me off. But now that I am healing from the procedures, it is nearly time to go home on continue to the regime to clears the little bit of Leukemia that has snuck back.

I am not sure where I am with all of this. I remain Faithful and open and receptive to all the prayers and power, and God and Medicine and Love.

I can fully feel my doctor’s love and they have many things the working on.

Currently they are using this new drug called Sirolimus that has been proved to stop receptors that tell cancer cells to grow. They are trying to get the levels correct.
So there is a dance we are playing between keeping me somewhat repressed and to activate more GVHD.

The Medicine comes from a plant that grows on Easter Island which appeals to my Mystic side and my love for Plant Medicines.

When I return home I am going to change my diet that creates more of a alkaloid ph balance I my body and less acid in the body. Much of the research that have read is the Cancer likes Acid not Alkaloid. I figure since I really haven’t eaten much in the past month then this is perfect time to try something new.

I have a year and 2 months of remission and learning what works in my life and what doesn’t.

So I am ready to rally together to fight to rest to receive to pray and to welcome a new phase of healing.
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Someone said to me, maybe this is a gift. I don’t really see Cancer as a gift. I do see what I can learn and give to my self and share with others as a gift. But this news isn’t what I would exactly call a gift.

I weep, I’m scared, I don’t know what is next. I’m fed up even angry some times, because darn it, I want to out there in this beautiful world.

I do believe that by join forces to heal myself and by accepting and not giving up. I am contributing to the healing of this planet. We all need to heal all parts of ourselves, whether it is Cancer, being over weight, and addition, and idea about our self. Its all healing. In that way we all have a gift which is the opportunity to make a new choice.

So here I have Tuesday Jan 15 making the choice to continue to believe in the power of love and prayer of intention and Medicine. I choose to let Faith carry me and to be Loved.
I choose to accept healing. And release any part of myself that may believe that I don’t deserve.

I am apart of the Peaceful Revolution that is going on inside each one of us, this is what I know will save the Planet and teach us new ways to be.

Heart open
Ready, Steady Go

Bring on the love
I’m returning it 10 fold with Gratitude and Blessings.

Namaste
Victoria