Preparing for The Temple on the Hill...

Hello Everyone

I hope that no matter where you all are you having a wonderful evening.

I feel very peaceful here, preparing for the second journey into the hospital for my next round of Chemo.

This is a new hospital, UCSF. It is located about a mile from my home on top of a very large hill overlooking the City. I have no idea if I will have a room with a view yet. But I like the idea of being on this great hill. I have this feeling of going to a Great Healing Temple to begin this Amazing Ceremony.

All of this is true of course
I am going to a Healing Temple.
And this is a ceremony.

It’s a good thing I love ceremonies so much, because I am told this is going to be a big one. Bigger and harder then the last one. I am ready and I feel open to receive this next round of chemo in the best way possible.

Tomorrow, Tuesday, I will go to UCSF to begin. I will be in my room by late afternoon and begin receiving Chemo by Tuesday evening

Its very strange to think that I feel so strong and healthy now and I am entering the Temple and allowing them to give me Medicine to get me sick, so I can get better. But this is how it works.

Last week I was struggling with all of this... the enormity of it all. My poor body I was telling myself..... How much can I take? What will happen? What will change? Who will I be when this is all over? Will I be strong enough? But I had no answers really, only more questions. That process is important and I wanted to honor that sadness I was feeling. That sadness and fear that comes with not knowing.

A few days ago I watched a video my parents had given Noah and I about people that have been through this, they talked about their struggles and what it took for them to get thru it all. Really one thing stood out for me and that is you just decide you are going to do it and you have faith.

So today I am ready, I have faith and I am choosing my life.

The Human Spirit is amazing. I feel blessed that my spirit is strong and clear.

I know that things may get tough. I’m ready to be strong, I am ready to weep, I am ready to allow for my fears and the not knowing.
I am ready for this ceremony.

Thank you for coming along for the ride with your emails, cards, visits, support, prayers, and thoughts.

Noah and I will let you know my room number, phone number and visiting rules as soon as we find out tomorrow.

May your prayers and good thoughts come back to you all and your families times 10!!!

Namaste
Victoria