The Incredible Shrinking woman...

Hello Sweet Community

It’s been a little while.

I’ve been feeling a little extra tired. I am in what they call the Nadir state where my counts are the lowest.

Ugh. It’s a whole different story being at home going thru this then being in the hospital
I do like being at home more, but everything is an effort, even with the tremendous help we have been getting.

My biggest worry at hand is the amount of weight I am loosing. I weight 89lb, well right now after breakfast I weight 91. I am eating as much as I can and as often as I can.
It feels like my body is not absorbing the nutrients.

When one gets a lot of antibiotics you loose all the friendly flora and bacteria in your gut.

So I am now taking Pro-biotics which help replace this, I am taking a gentle supplement that helps me absorb food and L- Glutamine which helps my intestines. This will take time but I am confident that this will help me gain some weight. All of which are very gentle on the body. So lets cross our fingers and say our prayers because the last thing I want is to be depleted and wasting away.

This is the most distressing thing to me out of everything that is going on. I’m trying as hard as I can nap, walking around the house to gain strength, eating about every 2 hours.

I’m fighting and keeping my spirit strong, but I notice I am getting more weepy and frustrated. Deep breaths and deep prayers bring me back to my center and my power and my faith.

I wanna stick around a lot longer and walk on this road for a good long time. I’m ushering the AML out of my body to make room for Complete and Unlimited Health and Healing. I want to be of Service and touch people and interact and be out in the world and experience more of Mother Earth, become an elder. All these things. I want to teach what I’ve learned and hear what all these young people have to say and teach, I want to help heal this planet.

But isn’t this what we all want?

So today I breathe deep, always find my heart and faith, visit with friends who stop by with food and hearts full of love. And I full of Faith, Trust and Gratitude.

Because even though I’m scared and feel weak, I am surrounded by so much Love, so much Love that I’m sure it would lift me and hold me and heal me on the deepest levels.

And that love extends outward and touches all of you. And we all get healed just a little bit and we get healed in a real big ways too.

Ill keep remembering the Love and how much all of you constantly are giving me and Noah on a daily basis.

And that Dear Ones is Serious Medicine!!!

Love, Love and Nothing but Love

Namaste
Victoria