Proceeding to the Next Phase...

Hello Lovely Community Near and Far

I hope you are loving life, the earth, your breath, your body, one another................

The Sun is Shining and it is a brilliant day here in SF. We’ve had 2 days of rain, thunder and lightening, rock slides in the middle of the City, piles of snow in the mountains. Mother Nature is doing her thing and teaching us once again that she is full of surprises.

Whatever kind of weather is being bestowed upon you, keep smiling and get cozy or go out and walk.

I am feeling very very well today. I had a good clinic visit and got to see Doc Martin after not seeing him for a while. So it was nice. We are at the next phase in my treatment.

First my immunosuppressant meds (Tac), is being lowered. This is to create some very minor GVHD, skin rashes, maybe mouth sores. By the end of March he wants to fully take me off the TAC to further encourage the GVHD. In their experience this aids in the long-term and complete healing by encouraging the donor cells that are becoming my own to have a little fight on their hands.

As if a cat bite and a cold isn’t enough......

It’s a little scary and a bit like taking off the training wheels. But I am ready......come to think of it, I don’t think I ever rode my bike with training wheels. I just went straight to the bike....ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

On Tuesday March 6th my Catheter is being pulled. This is the line that has been a part of my body since I went in for the transplant on Oct 17. It has been what has received Meds, and fluids and offered blood, it has been here for me to receive the Stem Cells.

The removal of the line indicates that I will be going to clinic once a week instead of twice. So again a very important phase.

I am full of Gratitude for each step of the journey and how each step is so different from the last, but each step contributes to the whole of my healing.

Soon I will post pictures here on the blog, maybe with and without Catheter...and you can see that my hair is coming back too.

Thank you as usual for being part of this community and reading and praying and hold a healing place in your hearts for myself and for my dear family.

Please remember those people out there that are struggling with their various healings and those out there that may not have huge communities and are scared.

Big Big Love to you all and Big Prayers.

Value every breath you get to take and every moment you get to have, they are so so precious.

I’ll write soon and include some pictures.


Namaste
Victoria

Sunny or Snowy Hellos...(from the 17th)...

Hello everyone

I know it has been a little while. Last I wrote I was back on 11 Long. It was a very short stay; I was in by Saturday evening and out by Monday afternoon. It still kinda sucked to be there, off my regular schedule, getting pumped with High Doses of Antibiotics. But I am grateful that was all it was. My finger has fully healed and healed very fast so my donor cells where fighting for me. The Nurses are amazing there and it was fun to chat and joke around with them.

Now I have a Cold!!! Yikes. I don’t like having a cold under any conditions, let alone being immunosuppressed. However they weren’t too too worried at the clinic, my chest X-rays are fine and it is most likely viral, meaning it has to run its course. But they do have me on a short course of Antibiotics in case there are secondary infections.

Ah well. Such is life. Our bodies are so fragile. And sometimes no matter how careful we are, we get a cold. Maybe it is Creators way to say "Let Go, release, and slow Down". So I have big prayers that the cold takes the fast track out of my body leaving me strong and renewed. My new cells have certainly had a few challenges and have rose to the challenge appropriately and courageously.

I am taking it really easy, resting, and drinking lots of fluids. It is beautiful outside; we may go to the park to get some Vitamin D. Yes I will still bundle up even though it is warm. A few art projects I am beginning to work on so this is a purrrfect time to do that as well.

Other then that things have been "different" here. Noah and I and the kitties are all missing my parents. They have such loving energy and humor and really helped to keep things light.

So we are trying to find new ways to be with one another and adjust. We learned a lot from them sometimes it takes a while to integrate valuable teachings of love and treating each other very kindly and patience and being in a giving place. We get so caught in our own worries sometimes.

I have had some fear being able to take care of myself in the same way, but I am learning, like a young adult who moves out on their own for the first time that overtime you learn.....or re-learn.

Today it is about 65 here in San Francisco; I hear it’s about 25 in the Detroit area. Wherever you are…Sun, or cloudy, rain or snow. Take it all in, and give thanks that we are blessed to be on this amazing Planet.

Big love Big Prayers to all of you.

Namaste
Victoria

Meow--Ouch...Back to the temple I go...

Hello everyone…

Well…did you know that cat bites are the worst bites you could get!!??

I was playing with Kattrina this morning. She is a very gentle cat. All of a sudden she bites me…!!

Ouch, it hurt...!!

That was 10:30 and by 1:30 it was really swelling. Noah suggested I call the doctor. So I did. Good thing because the doctor said they would prefer me going to Emergency. Cat bites are the worse. Once there, they said they usually always admit people with cat bites let alone people who are Immune compromised.

So here I am…back to the Temple on the Hill. They say 2 days tops. I’m praying that since it is Dad's b-day on Tuesday I’ll be released by then.

So send those prayers please guys so that all heals quickly.

I’m smiling at the silliness of this all and grateful for the familiar faces of the nurses.

I wont be on email much cuz I should be holding my finger up and its throbbing now.

Big Love

Namaste
Victoria

Hello Again...

Hello All and Happy Happy Friday!!!

I hope all is going well and that you are breathing a sigh of joy that the weekend is upon us. I hope you feel joy just cuz you are breathing!!!

I got the results of my 90 day Biopsy and I am REMISSION still. Happy Happy Joy Joy.

This was one hurdle that I was nervous about but all is well. There are more to come, soon my doctor will lower my immunosupression meds and this will hopefully create minor triggers to encourage the donor cells to do more work. They are already working for me because I am in Remission. So I can tell they are fighters and are fitting in well with the body I have offered to them.

With each Hurdle I jump, I become more and more committed to my health and it becomes clearer how important it is to act with my Health as the Priority. Even if this means staying at home when I don’t want to, or not pushing the boundaries so I don’t have to do certain things. I try to align myself with each change that to me represents the next phase of my healing.

The only boundaries I have been willing to push are of my Faith and my Spiritual Practices. I have learned that the more I open up to them, the more connected I feel to myself and my healing. More and More I feel myself expand in order for my gratefulness and humbleness to be more apparent in everything I do.

As I have mentioned before my parents will be departing on Feb 9th. They will be leaving our home on the 7th and staying with my brother for a day and a night and then they are off to Home Sweet Home.

Really, it has been such a beautiful experience having them here. I have learned so so so so much. From how to keep a better house, how to price shop, how to be MORE caring and of Service. They are just 2 very amazing wonderful people full of light and over flowing with Love.. And they are loads of fun to boot.

It is bitter sweet to let them go, to cut the Apron strings. I was anxious a few weeks ago but with clear communication between Noah and I and a new lease on how to be in good relationship with each other and our home and what it means to care for one another. We are ready. I am ready.

Big Big Love everyone. Give Love wherever you go, because It is alllll about the Love.

Namaste
Victoria