Counting the Moments and Being in the Moment...

Hello All

It’s Thursday and I am counting the moments till I get to go home. There is still a slight question about Friday as there are issues with my body holding onto Potassium. The main Anti-fungal drug they are giving me is draining on the potassium so they have to strike the right balance.

It amazing to me to think that I am the subject of many discussions pertaining to this, including finding another med that doesn’t have the same drain.

So all I can do is take the big pills they are giving me, I think 8 to 10 in all, and practice patience. I wont pretend that is not disheartening to think I may not go home tomorrow. But at the same time what can I do, my best interest is being taken into consideration. And everyone tells me I am doing so well. It feels like I need to be a peaceful warrior just to keep from going nuts in the final hour.

I am doing my best to participate in my own healing. I am eating more and eating in between meals. I am down to 107lbs, which means I lost 22 lbs. So I at least want to hold my weight steady because when I go home I know I will gain most of the weight back.

Today though, something happened. I suddenly felt tremendous peace and positivity in my heart. Lately it has been a struggle, but today while I was getting out of the shower, I saw light, I saw healing and I really felt it.

Ill keep you all posted. But in any case I am sure I will be home by the end of the weekend, if not tomorrow as scheduled.

More is behind me in this round then is ahead of me.

Have a beautiful day. Go easy on yourself and remember to savor the sweet simple things in life.

Big Love
Big Purrrs
Big Prayers
Always to al of you

Namaste
Victoria