2 more days and counting...

Good Morning everyone

I hope you are all having a beautiful day. I am counting the moments till I can walk out my hospital door and make my way home.

I have been praying so hard that my body continues to get stronger so that nothing stands in the way of me leaving.

The only alarming thing is I have now lost about 21 pounds. I weighted 107 this morning; I weighted 129 when I came in. I don’t think I weighted 107 in high school. I am short but have always been muscular. So my goal is lots of eating when I get home to gain what I have lost.

I know that I may be very tired but I am going to try to walk a little and build my muscles back up. It like I need to be in training in so many ways for this treatment. My mind, my spirit, my faith, my trust, my humor, my light, my body, all need to be inline to work together. Thankfully this hasn’t been a hard practice in the past.

I have been tested many times this past month but have found my way back.

Although I am tired and thin I feel my spirit shinning thru. I am smiling and laughing and feeling ME again.

I even joked with my one doctor who is on the serious side and got him to smile; I could see the twinkle in his eyes even though his mouth was covered by his mask. I guess it is important for me that my caregivers “see me" and that we some how touch one another.

I will of course continue to write when I am at home because you all have been such an important life line for me and sharing this story and this process is healing on many levels,

May your day be filled with Beauty of the simplest kind, may you find connections with those you love, may you find blessings in your life and may you feel taken care of by all the Great Spirits out they that want nothing more then to love us and care for us and give us what we want.

I feel so so so blessed by this online community that we have built. Did you know that there are more then 120 people on this list? WOW that just blows me away.

Thank you for that.

Big Prayers
Big Love
Big Purrrs
Big Big Healing

Namaste
Victoria