The status of my tests...

Hello All

I hope you are having a good day.

I wanted to update you on the latest status of my tests.

I may have mentioned that there are 3 levels to the Bone Marrow Biopsy. The first level was microscopic, and that test was clear. The second test was way way more specific then that and complicated and is able to view cells that one is unable to see under a microscope.

In that test they did find some Leukemia cells. My doc was not surprised and this is why they do 2 rounds of Chemo. I am not surprised per se, a little bummed out I guess. But in general if my doc is pleased I am pleased. He said I have been very lucky and have done really well. It feels that way.

I do have to say that I was feeling a little blue off and on over the past couple of days. I’m feeling frustrated somewhat about being here, getting stuck with needles, getting woken up, having to say goodbye to my husband every night. Just all of it.

I have wept a few times and had my moments. But this is to be expected.

Those feelings of being overwhelmed are brief because I realize there is NOTHING I can do but be in the moment and surrender to the care I am receiving and have faith that I will get thru this. I remind myself that this is part of a grand plan that I can not even have any idea about.

So I cry if I have to, I sulk sometimes and those moments bring me to the next.

I am getting shots everyday, called Neupogin. My nurse says that it is Magical and will help me to rebuild my cells. She suggested that is how I should look at it and maybe that will soften the blow a bit. And believe that is what I have to hang on to because they are painful and I get a lot of anxiety around getting them. I will be receiving them everyday for the next 7 to 9 days.

Again I don’t think I would be where I am if it wasn’t for all the love and prayers and well wishes sent my way. If you have had any doubt in the power of all of that, I am here to say I feel it completely and am so grateful and so held.

Thank you for all of your love.

I’ll send another update tomorrow.

Namaste
Victoria